Not a Good Frame of Mind

Do you ever just feel like you’re in it all alone? Not even the one person that you thought you could always count on was there. That has kind of been my week so far. This week as just been a week full of let downs not only has that one person that you thought you could always count on just not been there but it feels like the second, third, fourth, and fifth person aren’t there either. I guess in the words of Dr. Chapmen my love tank isn’t feeling very full and you can really tell by my attitude. I know that most of this is brought on by stress and feeling unsettled in our house b/c while things are almost all unpacked nothing is completed. There are no pictures hung on the wall there are no personal knick knacks sitting about. All of this is compounded by a teething, cranky baby and a too busy husband. Tonight is one of those nights that I feel like one of the girls off of 16 and pregnant who had this boy promise that he would always be there to help and blah blah blah but at 1 am when baby is awake he just tits there and lets her cry. Now this dosen’t happen very often as Alivia has slept through the night since she was about 3 weeks old but tonight at 12:30 she was up and unhappy. Dear husband was already awake playing some stupid game on his phone and waited for me to get up and get the child a bottle and feed her evern though I had already been asleep for oh an hour and half. After a bottle and the third time I was up he says “what can I do?” my response was short and mean “Not lay in bed.” I know that I should have nicely directed him what would best aide me but by that time I was so mad. I had been home alone all day with her he only held her once b/c I asked him so I could go get her bath ready. I just feel like I am the only one who is taking care of this child and I am so done with it. I know that this is just a bad night and tomorrow I should be completely back to normal I just needed a place to jot down my feelings so that when the princess decides it’s time to go back to sleep I will have some peace of mind and be able to sleep myself.